Who’s that boy ?

I think I m falling again . Falling in love again .. no wait ! This can’t be love.. or it is ?  Love at first sight ? Oh god ! This boy. I saw him for the very first time when i was one of the victims of demonitisation in India. I was standing in a queue a long queue for cash and there he was..😍😍 well well my first meeting was not that romantic! Okay! not at all romantic but I saw him and i was stuck in a moment. He was wearing a white t shirt and blue jeans. His straight and long hairs were beautifully placed on his head. Those brown eyes caught my attention and that long smile for no reason. 

May be that was just an attraction but this guy was like an angle for me at that moment. And i was completely lost in him. I took out my cash and without even a glance I went away from that place. I don’t know who he was. I don’t know what was his name. But I got his picture portrayed in my heart. 

After that  I saw him again near my appartment where I was living with my friends.He was there with his friends for a small walk.  Again for a moment I was blank and i started my own job of staring. For sure i have no other option and not that courage even except to look at him and keep on looking. But that was the most shortest time I saw him and again he disappeared. 

Sadly I didn’t saw him again for like few more months. 

No hope further but still an image in my heart and search in my eyes. 

Okay! So today I saw him again after so long. Black t shirt and dull blue denim caught my attention but this time I was not the only one staring. Yes!  He was staring at me to .. oh my god ! He was looking at me Seriously?? Is that a  dream ? Oh no that is  for real. He smiled and looked at me he  again smiled and disappear. Oh god is it a sign ? Anyways whatever it is but my eyes are in love with him. One more time and I won’t let him go now. This boy is a dream. And I want him. ! Want him like a cool breeze in summers, or like a first shower of monsoon. Who’s that boy ? Still a mystery.  But i ‘ll solve it because love is a mystery which is to be solved for the best.

Rain and Brain

Sitting with a mug full of coffee. Glancing and admiring the beauty of nature. But here I am not alone as you know the writer’s brain never stop ! Yes I want to write something. Something not on the beauty of rain or blessing of nature instead what i am feeling right now. 

* I want to go for a walk in rain. Want to get wet totally. Want to feel these cold breeze passing through my cold wet body. Because I want to feel something or anything. 

* Dehradun beautiful name,beautiful city with an unrealistic weather. People say “never trust the weather and a girl of Dehradun,they can change anytime “haha poor thing. You can never judge the climate here I bet. I was waiting for it since 3 days when this weather was playing a hide and seek with me. Sometimes the sun and sometimes clouds but no rain. And finally it’s raining. 

* why I was waiting for it ? Because it is so hot out here and I want it to cool up. Or I want to go out on a walk and cry ? Yes I want to go out and get wet and cry. But why to cry ? Not because i am upset but because I was waiting for it and finally it is here to be with me. 

* yes I was waiting for this rain to hold me and take all my emotions out of my heart. Now i can cry loud and nobody can hear me because it’s sound won’t let anybody interfere. No body can see my tears because it’s drop won’t let anybody differentiate my tears. 

Coffee over ! So as my thoughts…. 

Still something is pending and that’s another story. Or my story ☺….

After effects !

I need you😔

When you are all alone than only you realise that how much you are need of people to listen you like for hour’s. But when it comes to sharing what you are actually feeling than all what we do is stay quite. Why ? Because we are scared of being exposed. We are scared of being ignored. We hide ourselves under our fear of losing. I am awake till late in the morning asking myself that “what the he’ll are you doing with yourself ? Why are you thinking so much ? Just sleep and let all people who are troubling you go to hel. ” but no I have to think and i will think until I get depressed and lonely. 

I’ve got huge eyebags. Oh god ! This girl is being so mean to herself.. oh!  Yes I m mean to myself because i have no one who can listen to me. Loneliness sucks! Yes it does. We all need help but some people need it the most. Need a friend. Need a hand to guide, need somebody to trust. Like i need you. 

My own story

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